It is not death that a man should fear. But he should fear never beginning to live.–Marcus Aurelius
In the world that I wander in, one lives a fulfilled life when one follows a certain path. That is to excel as a student, secure a high-salaried respectable job after university, find a nice boy, marry him, have a million of babies, and you will live happily ever after.
For we were programmed (brainwashed?) with this since childhood, it was naturally the ever after I was shooting for, albeit blindly. But as is life, it has its own agenda. Luckily, somewhere along the way I woke up.
While my limbs were never tied, my mind was bound with perpetual guilt and ocean of inhibitions. I understand it was the way they were brought up too, therefore it was the only way they know how to be protective. But the moment the spell was broken, I began to see with a pair of new goggles and I grasped for breath.
I discovered that the world is vast and life has infinite possibilities! I became different from the people around me. I’ve awaken latent passions and developed new verve for living. I wish I was exposed to this earlier. But I am who I am because of who I was. I’ve always been a fast learner, so I will catch up!